What! it’s November!



So many plans so little time

I feel like the White Rabbit

running and racing

running and racing

time is my only competition.

I actually had a 50th

birthday this year and it passed

with out celebration


New Life New Leaf

I have stepped 

through the looking-glass without


Drop it & Stop it


Begin again.

Life is coming at me so fast

like waves crashing against

the rocks with a fierce



That I am able to

keep up with it all.

New life New age

New business

New language

New rules

New New New New



shhhhhh i love the unexpected.


written by Issa 2018

Why do we break ourselves?



It’s so CRAZY

we break ourselves

all the time

then have the nerve

to put the blame on others.

I have learned

with my many years

on this Planet

that is

if am not well

and feeling


I must look inward and

“Start to Fixing”

Because as we all know

so well

no one can fix

our broken pieces but



If you are not who you say you are or you believe to be, then Who Are You?


With a casual mind, ask yourself.

Are you who you say you are?

Subconscious or Conscious, that is the question!


Growing up as a young child having a Monkey Mind that is extremely busy, I would actually ask my self this. Maybe it stems from always getting into trouble and having an adult ask me, “Child, what were you thinking?” or “Think before you act or speak.” 

I did not like myself very much as a child and truly wanted to be anyone but who I was, so I submerged myself into my books of fairy tales. I was always the princess being saved by the handsome prince. As I got older I needed not to be saved but I needed to do the saving, so I wanted to be a superhero with powers. 

So in my teens I came up with:

My religion is my own, it’s called Issaizm.
There are only a few rules:
– Treat others how you want to be treated
– Try to respect the life you have.
-Try and be helpful to friends and strangers.
-Try to be as honest as you can be.
-Try to meet and respect as many people who are different from yourself, this is where true learning and self-building comes from.
-Don’t expect help from those you help.
YES you do see the word “Try” a lot in the rules because we can only try. I do believe in Manifestation / Prayer / Chanting. This is where free will comes into the picture and this is easy for most everyone. But for it to work, this is where a few of the above rules come into play. Our subconscious mind is powerful more so than our conscious mind.

I can “say” I am happy for my friend who found love finally. (conscious mind)
But if the Subconscious mind is saying, “Why her not me” you are defeating yourself.
Your subconscious should be saying, “When it is time, I will meet the right person”

This has taken me a tremendous amount of work throughout my lifetime so far and in my late 40’s I can answer the question above in this manner.

I don’t know if I am who I say I am but I believe to be I am.

I can actually say that I am living a life of my own design finally and is always trying to better myself by learning from others. To hopefully have the best life possible.

And be Casual.



Feeling blessed and …..


 Feeling blessed and able to share blessing is how my day has begun.

I woke up on my own

laid in bed stretching.

picked up the house

got dressed to go walking.

Had a beautiful 50 min walk on a trail

full of flowers

growing in fresh soil

running river, sunlight and shade.

Picked up salmon stakes at the store.

While leaving saw a woman in distress, car trouble

I helped.

I parked and helped her push the car to the side of the road so not to cause traffic. I was surprised at people who did not stop to see if she was alright, but they honked their horn because she was in the way.

Stopped at a bar

got a fresh squeezed orange juice.

Got another, just to hit the spot.

Driving home

thinking on how to

prepare the salmon for lunch,

feeling the sunlight on my arm

feeling blessed and ……..

passing it on.