Why do we break ourselves?



It’s so CRAZY

we break ourselves

all the time

then have the nerve

to put the blame on others.

I have learned

with my many years

on this Planet

that is

if am not well

and feeling


I must look inward and

“Start to Fixing”

Because as we all know

so well

no one can fix

our broken pieces but



If you are not who you say you are or you believe to be, then Who Are You?


With a casual mind, ask yourself.

Are you who you say you are?

Subconscious or Conscious, that is the question!


Growing up as a young child having a Monkey Mind that is extremely busy, I would actually ask my self this. Maybe it stems from always getting into trouble and having an adult ask me, “Child, what were you thinking?” or “Think before you act or speak.” 

I did not like myself very much as a child and truly wanted to be anyone but who I was, so I submerged myself into my books of fairy tales. I was always the princess being saved by the handsome prince. As I got older I needed not to be saved but I needed to do the saving, so I wanted to be a superhero with powers. 

So in my teens I came up with:

My religion is my own, it’s called Issaizm.
There are only a few rules:
– Treat others how you want to be treated
– Try to respect the life you have.
-Try and be helpful to friends and strangers.
-Try to be as honest as you can be.
-Try to meet and respect as many people who are different from yourself, this is where true learning and self-building comes from.
-Don’t expect help from those you help.
YES you do see the word “Try” a lot in the rules because we can only try. I do believe in Manifestation / Prayer / Chanting. This is where free will comes into the picture and this is easy for most everyone. But for it to work, this is where a few of the above rules come into play. Our subconscious mind is powerful more so than our conscious mind.

I can “say” I am happy for my friend who found love finally. (conscious mind)
But if the Subconscious mind is saying, “Why her not me” you are defeating yourself.
Your subconscious should be saying, “When it is time, I will meet the right person”

This has taken me a tremendous amount of work throughout my lifetime so far and in my late 40’s I can answer the question above in this manner.

I don’t know if I am who I say I am but I believe to be I am.

I can actually say that I am living a life of my own design finally and is always trying to better myself by learning from others. To hopefully have the best life possible.

And be Casual.



The Call for a Blessing


 I have travelled far from the safety of my nest that I call home. In this land that I have come to, I feel so much PAIN. I want to

remove the meaningless and make the meaningful 

 This is the second morning in a row that I have woken up at the hour of the Veil, 4am is the hour that I call the Veil because it’s the time when I feel the two worlds can communicate. I have such a deep need to talk to the spiritual world and ask that this pain that is here is, lightened and some how taken away so that my these people I love can live and grow.

There is so much love, I see it between them. But there is a terrible Pain & Anger that they both feel, within. Not for anything that they have done to each other, it’s just rooted and grown on its own from a terrible tragedy.  The Pain & Anger is deep within them and it is choking them like a terrible vine that is starting to shut out the light.


I now think to myself about Heaven & Hell and a thought came to mind that perhaps Heaven is happiness and peace of mind & spirit. Hell is anger & pain that can consume us.


At this hour of the Veil, I have asked with eyes full of tears that this Hell is lifted for these two beautiful beings and that a light can be shown to guide them to happiness and peace of mind. Please, Please Protect them and let the Love shine over them with Warmth, Light, Love and Peace. These two beings so deserve this because they are so beautiful.


written by Issa